Friday, December 28, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
First of all, lets get the bad news out of the way. Penelope has gotten an icky staph infection on her little chubby legs. How awful! Apparently this thing has been going around her school. It's NOT the superscary antibiotic resistant staph, thank goodness. So she will be better soon- but I feel just terrible for her. She went to the doctor and they lanced the boils (I know! Poor baby!) and they are giving her meds. The funny part is her telling off the doctor- apparently when he was finished she told him "You *hurt* me! And you didn't even say you were sorry!" I can just picture her with her little fists on her hips and her 'indignant Penny' face on...
I am getting farther along in my Xmess knitting- I promise to post pics later! I promised mom scarves for her office mates. I've just got two more on that list. Tomly's is started and then all I have left is Trevor and Davely. Trevor's is going to be my absolute favorite. I had some Noro left over in my stash- it goes from a lovely navy into soft browns. Noro is definetly some of my favorite yarn to knit up- it takes such little effort to make it look incredible. http://www.noroyarns.com/ It can be a little pricey- especially when you are buying the silks- but (I think) very much worth it because you always get plenty of yardage.
Speaking of knitting- I am thrilled to finally have a Thursday evening free so I can go to Stitch and Bitch at In the Loop. Now I just have to pry Amy away from whatever she's up to and make her go with me. Hear me Amy? I am coming to get you! I have to remember to leave my wallet at home though. Having your S&B at the local yarn store can be a blessing it can also be problematic. I swore to myself that I wouldn't buy anymore 'stash' yarn when I moved and filled up four boxes. I don't even *want* to know how much all of that adds up to.
I am getting farther along in my Xmess knitting- I promise to post pics later! I promised mom scarves for her office mates. I've just got two more on that list. Tomly's is started and then all I have left is Trevor and Davely. Trevor's is going to be my absolute favorite. I had some Noro left over in my stash- it goes from a lovely navy into soft browns. Noro is definetly some of my favorite yarn to knit up- it takes such little effort to make it look incredible. http://www.noroyarns.com/ It can be a little pricey- especially when you are buying the silks- but (I think) very much worth it because you always get plenty of yardage.
Speaking of knitting- I am thrilled to finally have a Thursday evening free so I can go to Stitch and Bitch at In the Loop. Now I just have to pry Amy away from whatever she's up to and make her go with me. Hear me Amy? I am coming to get you! I have to remember to leave my wallet at home though. Having your S&B at the local yarn store can be a blessing it can also be problematic. I swore to myself that I wouldn't buy anymore 'stash' yarn when I moved and filled up four boxes. I don't even *want* to know how much all of that adds up to.
I am on my way to yet another holiday get together. I'm alrady hitting the gin (bad girl!) but I think I deserve it. I got all of my shopping done, the knitting is proceeding at a rapid place and the food will be finished soon. I am ready to kick Christmas's pansy ass. I'm also relishing the time off from work. I wont be a cubicle dweller again until Wednesday.
Monday, December 17, 2007
That tire is FLAT!
I have bad luck with cars. I swear to God, they see me coming and just fall apart in anticipation. Like, my Saturn just died with 80000 miles on it. It's not like I didn't take care of it or anything, I DID. Even so. Dead car. Now, to avoid having to buy a NEW car (yes, this time I am going to buy new. It's just best considering how mechanically unsound I am), I am driving Mom's POS old F150. But hey-it works. Honestly, better than the Saturn did. Except for the stupid tires. They are just blowing right and left.
Like this morning for instance. Mom woke me up at 630 to say this, "Angie (I still can't believe that I am living somewhere where my name is Angie again) one of the tires is flat."
Yesterday afternoon the stupid tire was fine. Last night it was a pleasing doughnut shape. This morning it's flatter than a pancake (um....I think it might be time for some breakfast). Just so you know- the tire itself was in good condition- no reason for it to do that. Except for it's proximity to ME, of course.
Thankfully, my father knows me and has paid for AAA since I was 20. So I don't have to.
Like this morning for instance. Mom woke me up at 630 to say this, "Angie (I still can't believe that I am living somewhere where my name is Angie again) one of the tires is flat."
Yesterday afternoon the stupid tire was fine. Last night it was a pleasing doughnut shape. This morning it's flatter than a pancake (um....I think it might be time for some breakfast). Just so you know- the tire itself was in good condition- no reason for it to do that. Except for it's proximity to ME, of course.
Thankfully, my father knows me and has paid for AAA since I was 20. So I don't have to.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
So there, fuckers!
I've spent all weekend reading. Two books and two scarves later I realize I didn't do anything I said I would do.
I did get online and catch up with friends- and I did better than 'This is your once every two months or so note letting you know that I am still alive and my life is still too horribly complicated for me to enjoy trying to hang out right now.' I sent the 'back from the dead' email that really does mean I am going to start calling and going out again. Yes, I see the Jamroom Xmess party is happening, no, I am NOT going to miss Sally's wedding.
All I can say is that shitty things happen to me. I don't scream or rant and rave or get drunk and cry in public (oh, gross!). I stay home. I try to chill and not kill people. I don't make mountains out of molehills, I don't invent problems where there aren't any. For a semi-high maintenance girl, I really am low-drama. mostly because I tend to hole up with my drama until it's over. Worse things have happened to better people. My children are all alive and healthy and attractive and far too smart to boot. Complaining should NOT be on my agenda. I've always done my best with what I have- and do I really want that to change now?
And it's over, for better or for worse. I can't imagine that it could have turned out any worse, but I have an obligation to myself- and to those who depend on me- not to completely fall down over it. I can't stay bitter and angry and function, I'm just not built like that and I don't understand people who are. You ruin your life with that sort of emotional buggery- and everyone else you touch walks away affected by it as well. Why on earth would I let my life turn into that?
A scarf for Christmas says "You're neat and I like you, so here is something I made. But I don't like you that much...not enough for a shrug or something."
So I am concentrating on that. I can make scarves and I am a better person. Damnit.
I did get online and catch up with friends- and I did better than 'This is your once every two months or so note letting you know that I am still alive and my life is still too horribly complicated for me to enjoy trying to hang out right now.' I sent the 'back from the dead' email that really does mean I am going to start calling and going out again. Yes, I see the Jamroom Xmess party is happening, no, I am NOT going to miss Sally's wedding.
All I can say is that shitty things happen to me. I don't scream or rant and rave or get drunk and cry in public (oh, gross!). I stay home. I try to chill and not kill people. I don't make mountains out of molehills, I don't invent problems where there aren't any. For a semi-high maintenance girl, I really am low-drama. mostly because I tend to hole up with my drama until it's over. Worse things have happened to better people. My children are all alive and healthy and attractive and far too smart to boot. Complaining should NOT be on my agenda. I've always done my best with what I have- and do I really want that to change now?
And it's over, for better or for worse. I can't imagine that it could have turned out any worse, but I have an obligation to myself- and to those who depend on me- not to completely fall down over it. I can't stay bitter and angry and function, I'm just not built like that and I don't understand people who are. You ruin your life with that sort of emotional buggery- and everyone else you touch walks away affected by it as well. Why on earth would I let my life turn into that?
A scarf for Christmas says "You're neat and I like you, so here is something I made. But I don't like you that much...not enough for a shrug or something."
So I am concentrating on that. I can make scarves and I am a better person. Damnit.
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Current Circumstances, Taking Hold of Destiny and Lifechanges.
I took stock of my life and decided that I didn't like what it or I had become- boring, hermit-like, depressing, grinding, annoying, etc, etc. About the only thing that I could say about myself for the past two years is that amongst the drama and confusion and the truly heinous things that have occurred- I read some really good books. And I didn't get fat.
Not exactly things to be shouting to the rooftops. "Hey world! I'm not Fat!!! No thunder thighs over here!"
Pffft.
So. Sweeping changes must be made, I decided. Things that sucked must be turned into things that do not suck. One thing that I could say is that for the first time in my adult life, for good or ill, I have wide open opportunities. There is nothing in my way, there are no responsibilities other than myself- and the only thing that was limiting me was my finances. (Money can be so annoying! Feh!)
I say WAS because I decided to do the only thing that could be done. I moved back home. I am living with my mother (eeeewwwwweee). I have given up my independence for a short period of time so I can save scads of money and do whatever the hell I want! Am I certain what that is right now? Um. Not so much. But I have a general idea?
I know that it's got to center around two things- school and travel. I want to go back to school so much it makes my head feel explode-y when I start thinking about it. I also want to see things and go places and DO things and experience things. (Uh, well, that's really specific, isn't it? Yeah.) What I know right now is that this summer I'm going to travel- even if it's only taking a series of bus trips around the country to visit friends. And that by the fall I am going to be in school. I'm still narrowing down a major and what school I want to attend.
The biggest change I am contemplating (and one reason for the going home to mommy) is relocating. I have lived in the same small city for my entire life- and after the last couple of years here, I have decided that it would be nice to get away and experience somewhere else for awhile. Kind of like a grand, superneat adventure. I'm not sure that I want to permanently be somewhere else- this is home right now. But I want to see what it's like to live somewhere else, and go to school somewhere new. Perhaps somewhere more urban, and less-bible beltish. Wherever I end up, I want to have FUN and do new things. I can't think of many new things to do in a city that I have lived in for 29 years...sad but true. It's just so exciting thinking about tackling such a big challenge. Like, I'm going away for college- but at 30. Heh.
I always do things in my own way, don't I?
Cities that are currently in the running?? Portland, Oregon would be at the top of the list if it weren't so darn far away. Also in the running are Asheville, NC, Roanoke, Va, and a few others. I am still wide open to suggestions. Jen suggested Phoenix, Arizona, but I'm tired of living somewhere so HOT. I want to be somewhere where it's COLD in the wintertime, for cripe's sake! I want to have real seasons, not just Summer and January. I love the ocean, but I've always preferred to visit it in the off season. Same great scenery, not so many darned people with too little clothing (makes my eyes huuuurt! Yech! Don't people have mirrors at home?) I also want to live somewhere where there is good public transportation. I have awful luck with cars and it would be nice not to have to worry about one or the bills associated with one. It would be so much easier to be self-sufficient. Warring with that is the need for an un-rediculous cost of living- I don't want to live in a city as big or as expensive as New York. I mean, really- I want to eat something other than Ramen!
So. That's it right now. I have five or six months of living simply and saving, saving, saving! And planning, planning! I want to enjoy it here though. I'm boooooored with cave-dwelling! Someone ask me out for drinks, please! Hee. I used to have a life around here somewhere. Has anyone seen it?
Not exactly things to be shouting to the rooftops. "Hey world! I'm not Fat!!! No thunder thighs over here!"
Pffft.
So. Sweeping changes must be made, I decided. Things that sucked must be turned into things that do not suck. One thing that I could say is that for the first time in my adult life, for good or ill, I have wide open opportunities. There is nothing in my way, there are no responsibilities other than myself- and the only thing that was limiting me was my finances. (Money can be so annoying! Feh!)
I say WAS because I decided to do the only thing that could be done. I moved back home. I am living with my mother (eeeewwwwweee). I have given up my independence for a short period of time so I can save scads of money and do whatever the hell I want! Am I certain what that is right now? Um. Not so much. But I have a general idea?
I know that it's got to center around two things- school and travel. I want to go back to school so much it makes my head feel explode-y when I start thinking about it. I also want to see things and go places and DO things and experience things. (Uh, well, that's really specific, isn't it? Yeah.) What I know right now is that this summer I'm going to travel- even if it's only taking a series of bus trips around the country to visit friends. And that by the fall I am going to be in school. I'm still narrowing down a major and what school I want to attend.
The biggest change I am contemplating (and one reason for the going home to mommy) is relocating. I have lived in the same small city for my entire life- and after the last couple of years here, I have decided that it would be nice to get away and experience somewhere else for awhile. Kind of like a grand, superneat adventure. I'm not sure that I want to permanently be somewhere else- this is home right now. But I want to see what it's like to live somewhere else, and go to school somewhere new. Perhaps somewhere more urban, and less-bible beltish. Wherever I end up, I want to have FUN and do new things. I can't think of many new things to do in a city that I have lived in for 29 years...sad but true. It's just so exciting thinking about tackling such a big challenge. Like, I'm going away for college- but at 30. Heh.
I always do things in my own way, don't I?
Cities that are currently in the running?? Portland, Oregon would be at the top of the list if it weren't so darn far away. Also in the running are Asheville, NC, Roanoke, Va, and a few others. I am still wide open to suggestions. Jen suggested Phoenix, Arizona, but I'm tired of living somewhere so HOT. I want to be somewhere where it's COLD in the wintertime, for cripe's sake! I want to have real seasons, not just Summer and January. I love the ocean, but I've always preferred to visit it in the off season. Same great scenery, not so many darned people with too little clothing (makes my eyes huuuurt! Yech! Don't people have mirrors at home?) I also want to live somewhere where there is good public transportation. I have awful luck with cars and it would be nice not to have to worry about one or the bills associated with one. It would be so much easier to be self-sufficient. Warring with that is the need for an un-rediculous cost of living- I don't want to live in a city as big or as expensive as New York. I mean, really- I want to eat something other than Ramen!
So. That's it right now. I have five or six months of living simply and saving, saving, saving! And planning, planning! I want to enjoy it here though. I'm boooooored with cave-dwelling! Someone ask me out for drinks, please! Hee. I used to have a life around here somewhere. Has anyone seen it?
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